Quickly, yesterday's workout involved a 5 mile run around the normal route but the farther I expand the normal route, the more of big hill I must deal with. In other words I had to go down the backside of it only to come right back up to the top of it. Good run though. 5 miles 48:16.
Something I was thinking about during my run yesterday is just how much I want this. I want to be able to go out and not think about how I'm the biggest guy there or how it sure would be nice to be able to ask a girl out without trying to determine if my weight puts her out of my league. I'm sick of being judged based on that and look forward to the day when I'm not. I'm not mad at anyone that does judge me based on that because I let myself get this way and I'm going to be the one to end it. I've got plenty of things to be insecure about as do all of us, but at least weight I can control and getting near the 40 lb mark I'm already feeling more confident but I still have a long way to go. My weight loss has slowed to a crawl and I've got to change something soon to continue on my journey. I don't plan on ever giving up running and I don't need instant gratification but I would like to at least keep up a 8-10 lb/month weight loss so I can reach my goal someday in the near future. Hopefully I'll break this plateau this week at I'm shooting for 287 on the scale next monday.
This reminded me of a great post by Ben from Ben Does Life:
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I totally relate - it's tough to be working really hard but be alone, to want to have someone to share this wonderful new active and healthy life with while still feeling a little held back by self-confidence issues. Get healthy and do the right thing for you, and trust that everything else will fall into place! ♥
I just wanted to encourage you to keep working, it's all worth it in the end. I know, because I was there. 6'3" 322 at my biggest. Christmas 2009 at 307 lbs I decided to make that change. I'm now just under 230 lbs and life is very different. It can be done! And yes, life is much better at 230 than it is at 320. You can do it.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement. SLB and oh_mg how did you break though any plateau's you got stuck on as I seem to be in the midst of a rough one right now.
ReplyDeleteWhen your body gets used to routines, it doesn't burn fat as effectively. So I'm always changing it up - got to keep my body guessing at all times. I mix up workouts in both quality and intensity. I tend to get in fits of obsession with foods - I find something I like, then exhaust it, and that's when plateaus start. I try to keep calories between 1150-1250 every day, but once or twice a week I'll be in the 1400 range. I also found that eating most of my carbs earlier in the day with heavy protein at night works best for me, because I work out at night. Carb heavy dinners make the scale stay put for me!
ReplyDeleteI'm going meat-free for a few weeks to try and mix it up - I'm a runner too, so I have to find alternative protein sources. I think this will be an interesting change! I am 5'6" and weighed 345 lbs. at my biggest (July 2010), but I've been standing still at 210 for a couple weeks - totally ready to bust through my plateau to onederland!
Hope things smooth themselves out for you soon - keep us posted! Onward and downward. :)
[ Oops, I meant "I mix up workouts in quantity" - not quality. Workouts are always awesome quality. :) ]
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